Brotha Ash Productions welcomes our BAP Staff Writer Lawrence "LXR" Ryons. He's been away for a while, but we are glad to have him back. A current resident of Philadelphia, PA, LXR is a spoken word artist/actor/writer who focuses on black culture.
Well this seems to be an ongoing chapter in my life as I get older, the more I realize that growth is substantial to a species development, the more obvious the way of the world is becoming to look quite different. How would you come to grasps with reality not knowing about tomorrow? Then again we never do in our existence, and it almost can be a little frightening to the weaker minded individual living in fear of uncertainty. How about being so afraid about prolonging our life with change, if we dared to open our eyes to the doorway ahead to a new beginning. Some of us would never want to grip the door- knob in ear of what lives ahead. Fear is the ultimate obstacle for human change, but living past the moment or moments of life experiences that holds us in place is even harder. Everything in existence has dealt with change, including the planet, from the days of the super continent, climate shifts, even the species that occupy the space on this planet have changed.
These moments in time can consume an individual such as set off a chain of emotions and push for another form of acceptance, such as never moving forward with the change. It can be rolled into an emotion or an event that has already occurred in time. Black Americans has seen its share of moments in history, and unfortunately some of these precious moments have been erased from our history. That’s when knowing thy self and learning about your past is so important, because those moments in time can help us push for a suitable future. Take a drug addict for instance; no matter how much drug the person seems to consume, it’s the feeling that the person is attempting to obtain. The same feeling of euphoria, and a nearly perfect model of self-satisfaction that puts them back into that same moment of ecstasy and complete and total freedom. Now I am not saying that living in the moment is not something that a person shouldn’t do, but staying in the moment and denying change becomes the problem. Some people that continuously travel to retro parties and so called reminisce about the good ole days cannot live past the moment. They allow the feeling to overwhelm them and take them back to that period of time. And what is it about that period of time that makes it so special? Can we assume that their habits and mentality never seemed to adjust to the times, or can we say that they denied the changing of the days? Well I will be the umpteenth person to say that time waits for no one, because even though humans may see it as a measurement of life to death, moments can take over a persons mind.
What happens is we allow our emotion to overcome our logic, so instead of saying it’s time to stop being addicted to this one moment in my life, some will say I like this moment and no matter what I will live here forever. When a love one dies we feel sorrow, for years we hold on to that pain but the truth of the matter is that person would not want us to become embodied in their dead memory. Rather just hold them close to your heart, never forget them but never live in the pain of their untimely death. I can add myself to the equation of living in the moment and staying in that particular place. I don’t hold grudges anymore because I do not wish for my mind not to grow, that includes coming to an understanding with certain black people, and realize that an uncomfortable situation has forced us to change our ways to create new and sometimes not better moments. I have just accepted myself as an American citizen but not African American; I am like most of the people in this country of mixed breed. To throw me into one category would be to ignore my bloodline. The reason being is that like myself, most of the black people in this country are mixed with a little European, also myself includes, Jamaican, and Indian. Now, because of all the mix breeding, we can still revert to ourselves as African Americans but that is not all most of us are mixed with. Remember, mental growth is viable to our own well-being and self-preservation of the human race, we owe our ancestors that much.
In the end, due to the fact that the greater creator blessed us with darker skin and wool nappy hair, some of us have not become conscious of how beautiful we look compared to the minorities. Blacks will disrespect their own people and themselves because we were taught to hate each other and look at each other in total disgust. Do you believe blacks where sprayed with fire hoses and marched up and down the street for real justice, and equality just for the next generation can think of a whole new way of staying ignorant? This Presidential election on the democratic side is about pushing for change, for blacks can stop looking at Hilary as Bill and praying that she wins to place Bill Clinton back into the white house. Barrack Obama would be a new face with new ideas, so would Hilary with her experience but some of her ideas our old. Not saying that Barrack would make a better candidate with his inexperience, but the focal point is about change, new direction, and an end to these political dynasties. But that’s another story for another moment in history.